Feeling sian once again......Pre pre call blues partly but more of ' I should be doing something more with my life but I'm not' sorta sian-ness. It's so ironical. Sometimes it feels like i being such a whine.
At the dawn of each day or on the days when I'm stuck in hospital for calls, I tell myself that I should make use of my post work hours well. Do something. Catch up with a friend. Spend some quality time at home. Do some proper reading. But it hardly happens. By the time the day ends, all I can think of is getting home, eating and sleeping. And i absolutely dont feel guilty about slouching on the sofa in front of the tv till I start dosing off, until I wake up the next morning n realise that I just wasted another few precious hours doing nothing. Sometimes getting the time to do nothing itself is a luxury and it feels good to not do anything too. But my list of 'to do' things is also growing exponentially. Sighz......
(There's really not much of point to this entry other than to whine out aloud - Sometimes it helps to relieve some of the sian-ness)
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment