Time is Precious

Time is absolutely precious......

Have been feeling really tired lately..... Havent had proper rest for some time. It was probably a cumulative effect of exam prep followed by deepavali prep and of course the most important factor: Work. It all took effect after my last call on tuesday which was pretty busy and the day after which was busier. Didnt get to go post call (as usual). The next few days passed by in a daze. I was feeling more 'post callish' than my friend who had a call that was probably twice, if not more, as worse as mine. Felt a bit sick on friday as well..... Was dreading the weekend which I was initially looking forward to as I found out that i had to do a call on sunday. Was feeling absolutely sian.....

Saturday rounds were not bad. Managed to finish work by 12.30 and left hospital early.
My friend and i were arguing about who should come in on sunday. I was telling her that since I was on call it makes sense for me to come in for the rounds. N besides she worked the whole of the last weekend as well. She was telling me to come in just for the call and to take the morning off as I was already starting to feel a bit sick and we have a HOless week ahead to endure...... The argument went on till like 9pm on Sat night. She won in the end.....

Went to bed at 10.30pm on sat and woke up only at 9.15am on Sunday morning..... My boy! I so hadnt done that in a long time! Woke up feeling refreshed in a long time though I was still having residual myalgia. It was amazing that my phone didnt ring all the while (only later did i figure out that there was a prob with my sim card - haha) Had my coffee and breakfast. Then finally sat down to submit my call claims for the past two months..... i was feeling absolutely grateful to my friend..... It was just so luxurious to have at least the morning off to rest and recooperate. I guess I overestimated my limits.....

Well, not to mention that my phone rang at like 1045am for a new admission who was for an early ward assessment so had to come in earlier that I had planned to initially.....

But whatever it is, so glad for that few hours of extra sleep and the few hours at home..... Finding time for myself has become just so difficult and Im very appreciative of the few hours that I got earlier today.

I just had to write about this, even if it was in the middle of call.

On with the call now.....

2 years and moving on

2 years on.....

The verdict

And so, the verdict is out.

Some things are just not meant to be I guess.....

I have no complaints about what I got in the end cos that's something that I always wanted to do as well and of course, not to mention that I have good company :)

My only qn, which I guess I'll never get an answer to, is What is it exactly that I lack, that got my application rejected 3 times in a row? I just hope that the reason is something else but a lack of experience cos in the first place, there wasnt a chance given to obtain that experience!

I was prepared for this anyway..... Except that my hopes were a little higher this time round in view of the assurance I got.

I guess some things are just not meant to be. It may not be a bad thing after all. I'll just have to think that I was probably not cut out for it (Itz not being sour grapes in any way) In fact what Im doing now wasnt exactly my top choice but I have absolutely no regrets from the bottom of my heart. It was an extremely good experience and im sure the upcoming months will be too.

Itz now time to shed an old dream and move on.....

It hurts to be misunderstood by your loved ones......